Life Gets Easier

This cute little face right here is everything! One day I’m frustrated and sleep deprived and can’t handle much of anything, let alone brush my teeth before 8pm. And the next minute I just want to hold and snuggle her. Blame it on the hormones or whatever you want to, or maybe all this is just part of being a Mom. It’s true what they say, being a mom is the hardest most rewarding job there is. Holy Crap! I’m a mom!? When did this happen!? It’s crazy how simple life is and then BAM something happens and your life is so different now. I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world, but when did my life take a 180?

I feel like most mom’s might feel like they’ve lost themselves after having a baby. I mean, how could you not!? You’re basically a cow that pumps or feeds every 2-3 hours if you’re lucky enough to make milk and changes dirty diapers all day. It’s easy to lose yourself. I shower everyday just so I can feel productive, and because I feel gross if I don’t. I just can’t handle this whole “pad” thing. Oh, and when do boobs stop leaking? Because its getting a little ridiculous.

I would like to hear everyones birth story if you have a minute feel free to comment πŸ™‚

Life After Baby

Yep, this adorable picture pretty much sums up life after baby…Exhausting! Yes the endless nights of crying for no reason are REAL! But I absolutely love my life! Who knew sleepless nights and being covered in spit up and occasionally being pooped on would feel so great πŸ™‚ Everyday Ava shows a little more personality and everyday I love her a little bit more. Which doesn’t even seem possible that I could love her more than I already do. I catch myself staring at her throughout my day because she’s just so darn cute that I can’t help it! And of course my phone is low on storage again! My phone has seriously turned into my personal baby camera and thats all I use it for now. Oh and to send my husband pictures throughout the day, because why not πŸ™‚

So far I am down 22.5 lbs in 16 days post pregnancy. I gained 40 lbs total and am dying to go back to the gym! It’s hard to get motivated to get back in the gym, but I know I feel so much better when I go. At this point of course I want an amazing body after baby, but at the same time I get so much mentally from working out. My mind is less stressed, I feel more confident and I’m just happier πŸ™‚ So once I hit 6 weeks and am able to workout again I’m going hard core! I’ll be posting pictures up soon so you guys can hold me accountable. What’s your favorite kind of workout?

My Little Ava has Arrived :-)

After 15 minutes of pushing my little Ava Maria Bui arrived at 2:37pm!

Ok, so before I delivered her into this world I wasn’t at all connected with her from being pregnant. Some women I know have such a bond before their little one arrives. I just didn’t feel it. Don’t get me wrong I was super excited! I mean…I’m going to have a BABY! It just never hit me when I was pregnant and to be honest it still hasn’t really hit me and it’s been 15 days. After she popped out everything seemed so surreal and kind of a blur. I was in so much pain from recovery that it was really difficult for me to bond with my daughter. I much rather go through the contractions and labor again before I ever go through the recovery. I tore on bottom and on top, and even though my doctor told me it wasn’t that bad of a tear I don’t know if I completely believe her. Peeing with a squirt bottle sucked! It burned so bad that I became terrified to pee! But I had to because if I so much as sneezed I’d pee myself which is not a good look. Oh, and the hemorrhoids! Β What the hell happened down there!? I feel like the day I gave birth I also had a funeral for my vagina! Like, ok, she’s retired now. I was taking vagina selfies from the day I gave birth til now. I will say, don’t do that the first day! You might be scarred for life and feel like your sex life is completely over! Because looking at your vagina the day after you give birth is just…not what you want to see. Trust ME!

Here comes the lactation nurse to help Ava latch on to my nipples. Here’s the thing, how can something so small and cute with no teeth hurt you soooo bad! I want to breast feed because obviously it’s the best for your baby and luckily I had milk, but she sucked so hard and pinched my nipples so bad that they bled and cracked. I tried, I really did! I just couldn’t bring myself to breastfeed. It was excruciatingly painful for me. So now I just strictly pump which is another full time job in itself! But it’s all so worth it πŸ™‚

I seriously grow more in love with that little face everyday! I may not have bonded with her the day I had her, but who’s to say what I’m suppose to feel!? Now, I can’t imagine life without her πŸ™‚ She’s perfect and best part is…she’s mine!

My First Blog Post…Grab some tea….or Vodka and Enjoy!

So this was me January 14th, 2017 in labor with my first baby. Β Let me just start off by saying I am NOT one of those women who loved being pregnant. I really wish I was because then it might have made my pregnancy more enjoyable. I can’t complain though since I actually had a very easy 9 months. I love how people feel the need to tell you their worst horror story of their pregnancy….No, seriously! Because I rather be prepared for the worst and it end up being rainbows and unicorns. Let me just take you into my fun day of labor, shall I πŸ™‚

On January 13th I had a doctor appt at 8am that morning. Which was actually her due date and happened to be on a Friday, but that didn’t bother me any because the number 13 is actually one of my numbers πŸ™‚ Any who, I went in for my appt with my husband (which thankfully he was there because I am such a baby) and he checked to see how far I was dilated which was 1 cm…whoo whoo! So while he had his hand up my coo-ka he also decided to take it upon himself to strip my membranes, which I had no idea what that was, but it sounded painful and WAS painful! At 40 weeks I was more scared of going into labor and the pain of it than I was uncomfortable. I always hear women talk about how they are sooo ready for the baby to come out! Yea, like I said…I wasn’t ready for all that. She could’ve stayed in there another month and I would be ok with it. So, after I left the hospital my husband went to work and I went to Harris Teeter to get some sandwich stuff…umm, what the hell was that? Oh, a contraction! Ok, so it wasn’t that bad but definitely uncomfortable. Those contractions started a little before noon and came every 10-15 min for the rest of the day. Around 1am the next day I called the nurse because I was in pain and why the hell not. She tells me to wait til they get to 5 min apart consistently for an hour! OMG! I was at 10 min apart and in pain ALL day! So what did I do? Yep, I waited…told my husband to get some sleep since I wasn’t able to and there was nothing he could do to help. They started to get 5 min apart around 2am and stayed that way til I woke my husband up and told him we needed to go to the hospital NOW! It was so painful! And I needed an epidural, like yesterday! So, we get to the hospital around 5:30am January 14th and I seriously could barely walk and made crazy noises with every contraction…I had no shame anymore. That flew out the window along with any dignity I had. I was 4 cm and my water broke while I was laying in the bed at the hospital. I at first thought I may have peed myself, but luckily it was my water that broke. Whew! Not that I would’ve cared anyways. After all, I was in too much pain to care. They move me into the labor room and then an angel walked in! Yes! It was amazing! He was carrying a needle with some miracle juice in it and stuck it in my back and WOW it was AMAZING!!! Yes, I am talking about the epidural. How anyone goes without drugs is beyond me! More power to ya if you can do it drug free! You are Strong! Not me, I’m a weak little baby that thinks she’s dying when she has a fever of 101 and I am perfectly ok with that. Not everyone can be wonder woman and smile while pushing a watermelon out of a lemon πŸ™‚